OFF or easy aerobic recovery of choice
30:00 mixed AirDyne and mobility
Okay. I guess this is happening. This was the 3rd night this week that I've gotten less than 3 hours of sleep due to pain and/or anxiety, which is killing me more than anything else. I'm so tired. And people keep telling me I won't be able to sleep after surgery either, so that's depressing.
Not proud of how I handled yesterday. I don't know what made it so emotional. I mean, obviously it's an emotional thing and it's a big thing and there's a lot that will change. Loss of independence. Needing to ask for help. Not training. Sitting out the Open. Not working. An unexpected stressor was wanting my mom to come and meeting (unreasonable) resistance from my dad. But also, the urgency startled me. Was it really only a week ago that I thought Tim would laugh at me for being concerned, and that I'd still be able to do the Open in 3 weeks? It seems like this thing went from "minor tweak" to "eh, probably best not to aggravate it" to "eh, better get it checked out" to "uh, you're having surgery" to "uh, you're having surgery at the first available appointment" really fast.
I'll deal. I'm dealing. I can't imagine a better team of people managing the recovery/rehab, between Tim and Drew and Kirk and Stephen, and for that I'm lucky. They won't find a more compliant/diligent patient.
Muscle-up by September 1. Please?