Thursday

A1. Seated L-arm DB shoulder press, 3 x 4-5, 21X1; :60 rest
A2. Bent-over L-arm DB row, 3 x 4-5, 20X1; :60 rest
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For time:
400m sled drag, body weight on sled
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3 sets:
30/side light lying 1-leg banded curls
30/side light seated banded leg extensions

A1. 35, 40(4), 40(3)

A2. 65, 70(4), 70(4)

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15:57 with 160, from waist 

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skipped

Sled drag was so incredibly tough. I think I moved the weight slightly better than last time, but I took so many breaks that my total time was a full minute slower than before. It was freaking muggy, which didn't help.

Got to the gym super late and still had 89 things on my to-do list for tomorrow, so skipped the last piece. Sorry, not sorry. 

Peace out. 

Friday

A. Safety bar squat, 12 x 3 @ 70 bar + chains, 10X1; begin a set every :60
B1. Seated L-arm DB shoulder press, 3 x 5-6, 21X1; :60 rest
B2. Bent-over L-arm DB row, 3 x 5-6, 20X1; :60 rest
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3 rounds for time:
.4 mile legless Assault Bike
30 air squats
20 DB anchored sit-ups
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3 sets:
20/side light lying 1-leg banded curls
20/side light seated banded leg extensions

A. complete 

B1. 30, 35(5), 35(5)

B2. 45, 55, 65(5)

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7:57 (armless)

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complete with thin black band 

Fully intended to blow off training today after having 2 beers at work, but then found myself at the gym anyway. Didn't feel like doing anything, then convinced myself to sit on a bike and watch regionals, then got really sad that after this week all I'll be doing for weeks is sitting on a bike and wanted to squat while I still can. And then I just ended up doing everything. 

Squats felt better than last week, but still heavy. Felt like I was recruiting my hamstrings more than I ever have, which was kind of weird but not in a bad way. 

Everything else was fine. 

Friday

AM @ MobilityFit
22:00 Assault bike
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dry needling (less death)
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2 sets:
crossover symmetry, rows, As, subscap, pec minor 
banded tricep pull-downs
isometric lower trap hold
isometric subscap hold

PM
A. Safety bar squat, 10 x 3 @ 70 bar + chains, 10X1; begin a set every :60
B1. Seated L-arm DB shoulder press, 3 x 6-8, 21X1; :60 rest
B2. Bent-over L-arm DB row, 3 x 6-8, 20X1; :60 rest
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For time @ 90% effort:
50 air squats
50 arm-less Assault Bike calories
50 air squats
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3 sets:
20/side light lying 1-leg banded curls
20/side light seated banded leg extensions
:30 hollow rock

A. complete 

B1. 25, 30(7), 30(6)

B2. 25, 30, 40

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7:02

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complete with purple band

Tested out some stuff very, very gingerly at MobilityFit. The broken glass pain is gone, but the anterior capsule still feels "off" and all the muscles are angry.  Drew dry needled literally everything, a couple of rough spots but overall much, much better than Wednesday. The plan for the time being is to keep scaps activated and engaged, strengthen internal rotators to improve stability, and not piss off the joint. Everything else is on hold for the time being. 

Shoulder actually complained a LOT on the squats. I almost called it two sets in, but then kept talking myself into "just one more minute." It's been a couple of hours and it calmed down, so that's encouraging. Weight felt fucking heavy after the week off. To be honest, that's why I didn't quit - I can't lose the squatting progress on top of everything else. 

Felt super weird to only do the dumbbell stuff on one side.

Hit pretty much exactly where I thought I would on the for time piece. First 50 squats were super fast with no pauses. Biked at ~58 RPMs, a little over 10 cal/minute. I didn't realize how helpful arms were on the bike. Second round of squats was so hard, my quads were completely toasted. Paused a few times but still pretty fast. Yuck. 

The banded stuff really sucked today. Maybe purple isn't "light," or maybe it was the squat/bike thing. Either way, tough. 

Trying to get my head right for a long road ahead with the shoulder. I just thought the hard part would have been over by now. Drew admitted that the next few months are going to be long, slow, and frustrating, and even after months of therapy I may still have problems with it. It's hard to accept. 

Friday

AM @ MobilityFit
15:00 Assault bike
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passive ROM
lower trap isometric holds

PM

A. Safety bar squat, 8 x 3 @ 70 bar + chains, 10X1; begin a set every :60
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For time:
1 mile Assault Bike
200m 1-arm Farmer's walk, moderate/tough
1 mile Assault Bike
100m walking lunges
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3 sets:
15/side light lying 1-leg banded curls
15/side light seated banded leg extensions
:30 hollow rock

A. complete

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12:06 with 53lb 

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complete with purple band


Drew was visibly relieved to hear that there is no tear and the anchors are solid. He thinks that the volume of rehab I was doing early on just surpassed my threshold and set off this cycle of inflammation. He said it was really deceiving because I had great ROM from day 1, and since there was no tendon involvement, I had maintained strength from day 1, so without acute structural limitations we just exceeded the tolerance of the joint.

The plan moving forward is to back off for several weeks and let the cortisone work its magic. I'm back to post-op week 1 protocol, completely starting from zero. He (and Mattie) spent the whole hour working end-range ROM today, which brought me to tears because it was so, so painful. I almost threw up at one point. I can't believe this is "inflammation."

Training was tough this afternoon - I've never felt so rough. Sleep is worse than ever (like, lucky to get a broken 3-4 hours). I have no appetite. I'm in a lot of pain. I'm frustrated and anxious, and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm aware of how depressing this sounds.  

Squats felt heavy, but better than last week.

For time piece was tough. Couldn't pick up the pace on the bike at all (57 RPMs on the first mile, 59 RPMs on the second mile). Broke the FW 100/50/50, and chose moderate instead of tough. Lunges were hard, you'd think that I'd start to get used to these by now, but my legs were toast.

Aaaaaand... just washed down some vicodin with 2 glasses of wine. I'm getting desperate.